Things I’m Afraid to Tell You

Recently I listened to the newest episode on my all-time favourite podcast, The Lively Show (go check it out right now if you haven’t heard of it!) and the theme was “Things I’m Afraid to Tell You.” The episode was just that – a clearing of the air in honour of the New Year and in the hopes that it would allow for more alignment and abundant leaps and bounds in the year ahead.

I love New Years. Not for the unrealistic goal setting or the odd idea that with the passing of one minute we are all the sudden launched into some sort of new blank slate – but because it gives a chance to reflect on the past year and to figure out how to make some small changes or mental shifts to enjoy the following year even more.

So for my 2016 reflection I think I will take on the theme that Jess shared –

Things that I am Afraid to Tell You.


1. I don’t think I want a traditional career path

I’ve reflected on this a bit in The Seasons of Life post, however it is something that I feel a bit ashamed or naive to think. One of my biggest struggles during university was trying to figure out what I wanted to do with my life – nothing sounded right.

I’m learning that I am the type of person who likes being valued for my results or effort, not my time. My job is really quite cool (I design & market the brewery tours for BrewDog as well as manage events for a local BrewDog bar), however working full-time is a life-shift that school doesn’t quite prepare you for. However through this whole experience I’m learning about what I love, what I dislike and gaining a bit of a clearer idea of what I want my long-term ‘career’ to look like.

2. I’ve been meditating daily for about 3 months… And I love it

I’ve always been a bit of a self-help junkie, but recently have gotten into meditating. Thanks to Dan Harris’ 10% Happier, Oprah & Deepak and the Headspace App I have been able to keep with it. I have noticed a difference in my ability to calm and relax myself and to find a bit more separation between feelings, thoughts and real-life. I’m super passionate about this right now – please send me a message at if you have questions/want to chat!

3. Bullet Journaling may be my penmanship/drawing/organisational artistic niche

Around September of 2016 I stumbled upon bullet journaling and got way too excited. Let me tell you – I am hooked! I’ve always loved handwriting, but have never had a good outlook to practice in. My biggest complaint with planners is that they don’t have the space or functionality I’m looking for…. Prayers answered in the form a bullet journal. But something so fun about this is I have started doodling more and in turn am gaining confidence with my handwriting as well as little cartoon drawings. Randomly I helped a co-working draw up a mock brewery tour map and the owners ended up loving it! I (self-consciously) shared a bullet journal spread on social media and got a bigger reaction from friends than almost anything else – it just seems like a great way to combine so many random things I enjoy together.

4. I’ve put money into Siempre Sydney, for the first time ever. (and that scares me)

2016 marked the year that I finally purchased my own domain and a theme – costing a grand total of about $160. Although not that much money, the idea of spending money on my blog was a bit of mental struggle. It evolved it from being something that was pure passion and a time-investment to now a platform I am (somewhat) financially invested in. I’ve spent so much time re-uploading, designing, signing up for free memberships and SEO…. It’s sucking up so much time, but I love it. However the idea of what it could be (or what I’m trying to make it be) frightens me.

5. I am actually going to try and make some money off my blog

Something that came in hand with putting money into my blog is figuring out a way to monetise it. And the main way I plan on doing that is via affiliate marketing. For anyone (like me a month ago) who has no idea what that means – is that the products that I am already advertising on my blog via links, will now contain a referral code and I will earn a small percentage of the sale if you purchase anything through recommended links clicked on via my blog. To me it feels like a no brainer – I already recommend and promote products I love, because they’re great! Otherwise I wouldn’t be promoting them. However it does seem as though affiliate marketing does sometime get a bad rep.

But it is scary to say to the world that yes, I would like to make some money on my blog. All the sudden it once again changes from a hobby into something more. But in reality it’s all an experiment. How far can I take this passion of mine? Because honestly regardless of whether I have made $100 or -$100 at the end of 2017, I will still be here writing away!

6. I don’t want to settle down (yet)

This might come as quite obvious from the choices I’ve made thus far in life – however the idea of buying a house, having kids and putting down some permanent roots makes me feel ill. Right now I’m enjoying flowing with the opportunities that present themselves while meeting new people, exploring new places and trying to experience as much as possible. Some day I think I might want my own home with a few kids sleeping in beds – but for now that is a very (very) far away reality.

7. I love my life

To be honest, thus far in life I’m really happy with the choices that I have made. I don’t want to come off conceited (hence why it’s slightly awkward to state this), but I am really pleased with my life course thus far. So many people think about studying abroad in Argentina or just moving to Scotland and say “I wish I could do that..” and the reality is that you can. If you really want to, have an open mind and go with the flow, then you can make anything happen. It’s hard. Living with a family that didn’t speak any English. Trying to get a visa into the UK. Being jobless when it felt like everyone was following a path. All of that was hard, but I was still following my course and knew that I was where I wanted and needed to be. And that was it. And for that I look back on my life since graduating from high school and am nothing but pleased with my personal growth, memories, experiences and amazing people I have met along the way.

8. I want to start continue making videos

You know how the best career advice you’re supposed to get is – “what did you do for fun as a kid?” Well recently I had the epiphany that what I did as a kid, and as a teenager, and as an adult  was make videos. I love filming, editing and compiling. So this year a big focus for me is to make videos of our travels. It’s something I really want to commit to. I already have a few I haven’t really shared or need just a few tweaks – I will be posting them in the very near future!

So cheers to 2017

and to all the growth and self-realization that occurred in 2016. I’m excited and inspired for what will occur in 2017. Thank you for taking the time to read a few of the things that I am afraid to share. There are many quotes about fear and excitement being the same emotion, just from a different perspective. Many of these things I’m fearful or afraid to share are really quite exciting and scary new parts of my life. But they are chalk-full of uncertainty.

So here’s to 2017 and to see where our paths may lead us!



p.s. If you’re feeling up to it – what are the things that you’re afraid to tell? There’s something so refreshing and settling about sharing those bits that fill you with fear and excitement for the road ahead! If you please tag me @siempresydney on Instagram, Twitter or just comment below!

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2017-01-05T12:15:52+00:00 January 2nd, 2017|Life, Thoughts|6 Comments

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  1. Jami January 3, 2017 at 2:19 am - Reply

    Loved this so much! You can do anything you set your mind to Syd. Keep filling your life with the things that make you feel alive, no matter how big or small! I think you’re great 🙂

    • SiempreSydney January 3, 2017 at 8:24 am - Reply

      Thank you so much for reading and commenting Jami! You are such an inspiration to me, I really hope that at some point in the future we’re able to sit down and chat. I want to hear about the past year and a half of your life! Love you & hope you’re enjoying being back in the US! xx

  2. Erin Miller January 3, 2017 at 11:02 am - Reply

    Sydney, YOU, my traveling free spirited, loving and living girl, are amazing!! YOU are why I teach because of exactly who you have decided to become! Our decisions can be our friends or they can be our enemies! Your choices are amazing and life should be about doing what you love…and you are doing it. It’s a chapter to be written in your novel of life. May 2017 be a year filled with more things you don’t want to tell us and adventures that just keep writing themselves 💖 Travel on!

    • SiempreSydney January 3, 2017 at 6:16 pm - Reply

      Oh my, this almost made me cry. Thank you so so much for your kind words & support. You have and will always be a teacher I look back on with so much respect and appreciation for the things you taught me not only about math, but life as well.

      Such wise words – I will be re-reading this comment many times to come.

      Sending you lots of love & hope you are enjoying your fabulous, sunny vacation! xx

  3. Taylor January 24, 2017 at 9:21 pm - Reply

    Great post, Sydney. Finding myself on so many of the same levels as you right now–both with trying to step up the blog and also reflecting on life choices and being happy with the decision to live a slightly alternative lifestyle. Good to hear it coming from someone else, too. Hope we can meet up some day soon!

    • SiempreSydney January 25, 2017 at 9:55 am - Reply

      Funny how life introduces you to people through random ways – it is so nice & refreshing to know there are other people going through very similar bizarre situations 🙂
      I really would love to meet up soon. I’ll definitely let you know next time we head down South & you have a place to stay if you guys can make it up North to Aberdeen! Excited to keep following your journey as well xx

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